I don’t know what Styna thinks of me anymore. She is excited about her relationship and planning for their future. I love her a whole bunch, and want to share a future with her, but I never got a chance to show her how much I love her. It might look bad in some sort of way, that I have feelings for someone who is in a relationship. But I can’t ignore that I love her and want to make her feel happy, secure, safe, and loved. She’s a part of me now. And every day I wake up, I want to be one with her. With her, I’m happier, and because of her I feel stronger.
I’m wondering now if I hurt Styna whenever I am upset about how something was handled or the way she approached things. She said recently that she requires a specific, stable environment. Due to the lack of communication between us, things weren’t stable. And instead of being upset, maybe I should have tried to show her more that I understood and that things were still okay between us, that I continue to love her and that love isn’t going away.
I don’t know what Styna thinks of me anymore. She is excited about her relationship and planning for their future. I love her a whole bunch, and want to share a future with her, but I never got a chance to show her how much I love her. It might look bad in some sort of way, that I have feelings for someone who is in a relationship. But I can’t ignore that I love her and want to make her feel happy, secure, safe, and loved. She’s a part of me now. And every day I wake up, I want to be one with her. With her, I’m happier, and because of her I feel stronger.
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