Going back...reliving all those moments on Disqus from the past four years...it made me kind of emotional. While taking pictures, my insecurity went up, and the more lost and disconnected I felt.
And as for Styna...after all this time, I still don’t know. My feelings have not gone away, and they are still intense. Back when there was the suspicion that I might not actually love her, but instead be infatuated, one point was that love grows stronger with distance while infatuation and possessiveness gradually die. She now has put as much distance as she can between us, and my Stuff hasn’t gone away. The greater the distance between us, the more her feelings for me died, and the stronger they became for her boyfriend. She plans on keeping this distance between us. Every day, I think about how much I love her.