So, I haven’t talked about her, even on here.
Despite everything, I still think about her. Though a lot of time has passed, including the last time looking at her posts or content, I still have feelings for her. She and my cat are the two beings that are on my mind the most. I am not crippled with grief, though there is sometimes longing.
I also fall in to a state of feeling dead because of the state of the circumstances of my life that never ends. How I exist itself is sad.