Styna was the greatest hope and want I had left, and I have loved her and wanted to be with her so much. I still want her, but I can’t have her. Now she is in my dreams, and there is love and big pain. Me and my love don’t matter to her, but everything has mattered to me. I can’t do anything about anything, but how I feel matters to me.
My heart can hurt even more, and I can get even more depressed. I know because I’m feeling them happen. Over time, with it being reinforced that I can’t do or be what I want, I have grown numb to knowing what I want; there’s nothing to get out of life.
Styna was the greatest hope and want I had left, and I have loved her and wanted to be with her so much. I still want her, but I can’t have her. Now she is in my dreams, and there is love and big pain. Me and my love don’t matter to her, but everything has mattered to me. I can’t do anything about anything, but how I feel matters to me.
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Falling in love with someone who doesn’t love you back, why did this happen to me? It hurts and stabs even as my heart reaches out. I’ll never be with the person I love, and life doesn’t feel right or worth it. There’s this giant piece missing and I can’t do anything about it but try to stand while my gut tumbles.
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AuthorI have mental health problems and have had a lot of traumatic things happen in my life. If anyone cares to read...here you go, and hopefully it will help some people not feel alone. Archives
April 2024
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