I’m applying for jobs again; I have to try to send in an application every day.
Due to concerns over Coronavirus, the next three weeks of new movie releases have been delayed. I don’t know how that is going to affect the two theaters we have here.
Through some connection at work, my mom found out that someone has a 25 year-old daughter on the higher-functioning end of the autism spectrum. She doesn’t have very many friends, so my mom is pushing for me to be one. I haven’t met her yet, but I think my mom is hoping that the two of us get together and start dating. I have been asked what I think of her looks (my mom saying she looks “cute”), if I like that she’s really into Harry Potter, whether it would be nice for me to go to a movie with her. My mom keeps bringing her up. Considering how much control my mom has over my life, I’m getting concerned that she will push me and this person so close together no matter what I end up thinking or feeling about her.
Meanwhile, I still love, miss, and have strong feelings for Styna, even though I haven’t been following her content. She is on my mind a lot; there is a big feeling of loss. I had gotten to the point where I felt like dating and marrying her, spending the rest of my life with her. This connection hasn’t gone away. She left me, but the love lives on in my heart.