The rejection has me feeling pretty worthless. Anything I do now looks stupid. I don’t feel like I have value.
And I still love Styna. This is strange to me, being in love...but knowing I won’t be with her. I felt like we were family, that we were each other’s forever. She means so much to me, and I still think about her all day long. It’s been over a year, and I can’t get her out of my mind. All I want to do is be with her and stand by her side. That I feel so strongly about her, but nothing will come from this...it’s like I don’t live in this world anymore, because I don’t feel right. She has become my world, and now she’s just...gone.