I love Styna so much. I have been wanting connection with her for almost 20 months now, and 14 months ago I sent her a message asking if she’d marry me. I have been held away and then pushed away, with the chances for happiness and something more never coming true.
I have been rejected in every way. There is still a pain somewhere inside me that is piercing whenever I come across it. I can never be with the person I love and wanted to be with the rest of my life, and I will never mean anything to her. Instead I continue living this lonely and empty life with no hope for the future. I feel like I’ll never be good enough for anybody or anything.