Styna was the greatest hope and want I had left, and I have loved her and wanted to be with her so much. I still want her, but I can’t have her. Now she is in my dreams, and there is love and big pain. Me and my love don’t matter to her, but everything has mattered to me. I can’t do anything about anything, but how I feel matters to me.
My heart can hurt even more, and I can get even more depressed. I know because I’m feeling them happen. Over time, with it being reinforced that I can’t do or be what I want, I have grown numb to knowing what I want; there’s nothing to get out of life.
Styna was the greatest hope and want I had left, and I have loved her and wanted to be with her so much. I still want her, but I can’t have her. Now she is in my dreams, and there is love and big pain. Me and my love don’t matter to her, but everything has mattered to me. I can’t do anything about anything, but how I feel matters to me.
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