As far as Ms. Mulaney...I feel like she's given up on me, like she doesn't want anything more to do with me. I think about her every day, and I know I love her. Even as my feelings grow stronger, I feel like there is a spot inside me that aches. This whole business has gone badly by my own doing, but I haven't been getting over her. I feel like I have given myself to her, even as she has chosen to not do anything with me. It's like my heart is in a cupboard somewhere as she goes on with her life as if that heart doesn't exist. My feelings continue, and I stay true. But if there's nothing to come of it, and my feelings are real, what am I to do?
First, a documenting update: I finished the latest cycle of documents and set up an outline for the next one for when I start it. It will be shorter than normal, not having titles inbetween the cycled segments except for those segments that will go on into the following one. The removal of the concluding segments gets rid of the long length the cycles have grown to and gives opportunity to make cycles afterword have a fresh start where I can try out a few different things. Before I start the new cycle, though, I'm going to take a break to see what other thing I could work on.
As far as Ms. Mulaney...I feel like she's given up on me, like she doesn't want anything more to do with me. I think about her every day, and I know I love her. Even as my feelings grow stronger, I feel like there is a spot inside me that aches. This whole business has gone badly by my own doing, but I haven't been getting over her. I feel like I have given myself to her, even as she has chosen to not do anything with me. It's like my heart is in a cupboard somewhere as she goes on with her life as if that heart doesn't exist. My feelings continue, and I stay true. But if there's nothing to come of it, and my feelings are real, what am I to do?
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