I don't know if Styna will ever reach out to me. I might still make her uncomfortable, and so always be a threat to her. I do love her, even though she loves someone else. I have only ever had good intentions, but they were never enough. I'm held away, and I'm stuck. If there was anything I could do to at least be friends with her, I would do it. This never ends. I feel drawn to her, and my heart feels full of emotion; for months I go through the pain I have caused myself. There is no answer to my heart, or my pain from her. I want to be there for her forever. When she puts stuff out, I don't know if she's talking to me or not. A few months ago she expressed to someone that she was glad that they had stayed. With every revelation, I now only hurt more. None of you readers might care about me or this situation. Well, you don't have to live with this, and you don't have to be reading these. I do not have a happy life, and the person I love has bad thoughts about me. This October I'll be 22. I've already had too long of a life.
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