As Ms. Mulaney fell in love with someone else, I think I have fallen for her even more. It's this large thing inside me, and I want more and more to tell her how much I love her and how much she means to me. It's been nearly a year since I first came across her; there's this strain on my heart. It's a situation where I can't do anything and there is no sign that anything is going to change. I'm an outlaw. This feeling inside keeps getting stronger even as the chances that she'll ever reach out to me dwindle. She might or might not know what I'm going through, or how genuine my feelings are, or how much I want to make things between us better. She probably doesn't care. I am faced with this, though, this feeling I have never had before, and people have left me in this. If it's not meant for us to have any part in each other's lives, I don't understand why this is happening to me. She is excited to kiss and be with the person she loves; I feel that for her too, but it's a raw pain. If I'm being ridiculous, okay. It is the reality that is gripping me though. And I know from my experience so far that life doesn't get better.
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AuthorI have mental health problems and have had a lot of traumatic things happen in my life. If anyone cares to read...here you go, and hopefully it will help some people not feel alone. Archives
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