I didn’t get to bed until 7 a.m. because I kept having stomach issues.
I have been alone with the cat for the last couple days while my mom and brother traveled, and they came back this evening. Fighting, yelling, and violence started on the way home, so when they came back the atmosphere changed a lot. I have gone from being in peace, snuggling with my friend, to having high anxiety and being on edge; the norm.
As for the situation with Styna... I don’t think my dreams are going to come true. There was a hint today that she and her boyfriend will be living together in the future. Recently there was also some suggestion that when he visits with her, there is going to be sexual intimacy. It seems like things have gotten really serious between them. I don’t think she wants to ever have anything with me; I only upset and hurt her.