She may have some kind of plan to see me for a brief bit, but then here she would be reaching out to me long after she had already rejected me, left me still having feelings for her, and started plans to move to the United Kingdom to marry and be with her boyfriend. I have been nowhere with them on this journey, because I was cut off. If I’m supposed to just feel okay about everything, well... I don’t. I don’t feel right, and I don’t feel like I fit in. I was never a part of their organic process; I have been craving my own, and waiting, and have been hurt and lost hope.
I feel like I’m shit.